I'm terrible at updating my blogs... To bo honest it's at a point I need to make up my mind to quit the journey and admit defeat or transition. I know the answers and my potential, but if I don't use the tools at my hands I will lose. The have of learning I can't take on the world by myself is a hard one. Luckily I have a co-pilot in my shot up plane of failures. I believe it why I am at my breaking point, because I am almost about to jump off the ledge I've long been needing to plunge. Usually every time I am at this point everything crashes around me and I start back at scratch. The story of my life for the past 7 1/2 years.
As much as would like the chase what my heart truly wants. I have to say humble for a while longer even though my creative work suffers. The responsibilities I have to carry.
This is a marathon and I have to turn my dreams into reality...
It's been almost a year being out of college and the blog needs to be updated. The challenges of finding my place within the illustration and art world. To be completely honest my work has suffered this year. I've been productive in a since but the work needs to grow and get better. Along with my comics have been put on hold. I've been work to 3 jobs that made the work suffer. But I did land a nice gig the will hopefully change all that. I've done some out reach as well been getting my work out there little by little. I have to make the change or quit. I don't plan on quitting any time soon...
Tomorrow is the beginning of my last quarter at Ai. The closing of the second chapter of my life, as an artist. The Vol-state years was learning to become and an artist. The long nights in studio that felt like magic and art was freedom to explore, learn. At Ai, the years I would consider the bootcamp ones. Taking everything I have learnt and being pushed to point of multiple breakdowns on a monthly bases. I would consider these two years at Ai as the learning the back door of the art world and behind the current of Oz. Seeing what it means to be an artist in Chicago and my very short time in New York. Along with years I have seen the fall that many artist take going after their dream. This is not a game for many. I built some my first professional clients while in Chicago and learning the never ending relationship of client and worker. Along with the never ending paperwork and politics of running your own business. I've face so many challenges from moving from South to the North. I'm glade that I had the experiences of traveling abroad, which prepared me for Chicago more than I could even imagine. Coming to Ai also reminded me of what I picked up the pencil for in the first place. If I had not known why, I would have given up my second quarter here.
I'm truly grateful for all the love and support; I have received from friends, family and former faculty of Vol-state. I could have not done it without it. Being miles from home is hard and missing the simple of life of the South is a long for, but I hate to say it. I feel like there is not much a career back home. There a 1000's of opportunities I can have here that don't even exist in the TN. I seen what I can in just a few years here and a few more, who knows what I can do. I love the hustle and grind of the city. There where so many challenges I had faced here and so many more to face when I am done.
All I know is this will only get harder the farther I climb and so the fall will be just as hard....
Doing some Photoshop magic for a client on a book cover project in the works. I did a pen and ink and now doing a digital to give the client options. Plan on first making the images look authentic and then doing a blue/grey filters
On the metra for the first time to meet with a new client. I don't usually travel for work, but I'm also needing new clientele. The things we do, for what we love. I had the my devils luck for once and cought a train soon after work. I'm coming close to graduation and needing to build new clients fasts and see more income coming my way. Life a of a freelancer.
Now within four months of graduating I'm slowing ending on chapter and starting a new one. This would be second chapter closing. I moved to Chicago almost two years now. I've done and seen a lot in growth and experiences. I've been told by many of my colleges this is the easy part and next is real challenge. Only 5% of those who go into the arts ever make a living doing it. I knew of the challenges in high school. It almost made me not go into the arts. Luckly I met a few people, who showed me other wise. I look back almost 5 years later and regret nothing.
Another Monday commute to school siting on the CTA which is usually late and always pack. I'm currently living in Chicago, IL. Growning up in a small town Gallatin, TN. To a city like this was almost over whelming. I've been leaving here for almost a year now. The city has grown on me. Even thought I hate my morning cumute.